For some time now, i’ve been living my dream. Since childhood i wanted to work in Film Industry anyhow. I never mattered to me that weather the job is of working in a multiplex, working with distributors or working anywhere i could be able to watch movies for free. It was not about the glamour but it was something about the feeling of being in a cinema hall. For the matter of fact i could go and watch any movie just for the smell of popcorn and samosa.
So here i’m, in a job where not even i get opportunity of watching movie but also get an opportunity to meet stars. But as i’m and had always been the man of past, i still want to go in past. I don’t know when it started but i had always wanted to go back in past. Infact i want it so bad that most of the time when i had dreams, i’ve dreamed about it.
Riding on my bike to my office take me back to the days when i use to ride my grand fathers kinetic in my colony. Those were the days when i use to go to my friends house or to a video game parlour without thinking of time. There was always a fear of going out of fuel but the fun of riding kinetic was worth taking the risk. Sitting in front of my laptop in office i think of the days when i paid more than Rs. 800 to a cyber cafe for 20 hours of internet as a packaged deal. Those were the days when willingly i wanted to sit in front of the computer to experience the magic known as internet. But as well know, same trick doesn’t work for a longer period of time so i don’t find internet interesting anymore.
I wonder why it always happens to me that i’m never able to focus on present. For instance, while working at Spice, i recall the days i spend at MICA and wish that i could relive that life again. But when i was in MICA, i always use to remember the time me and my friends spend at IIPS and cherish those moments. The only time when i was really happy with everything around me was when i was in IIPS. I think those were the days when i really started to expect things. At IIPS i actually got what i wanted. And here again i’m back to the past. But those were the glorious days.
Also I think the problem is that i can only remember the good things and so i conclude that those were the glorious days.
